blurry and perfectionist

2011-11-19T17:15:00.001+08:00

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Wishing

2011-11-10T00:13:00.001+08:00

How I wish my life will be blessed with a fruit of love!
I have been longing for him for quite some times !
Time will not heal the emptiness in my life!
Ya Allah , give me and guide me through this painful yet calm journey of life!
Give me full strength to pull the courage in my marriage!

Update on new house

2011-04-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

Been so excited on moving to a new house lately...buy a bit frustrated when the house was not completed according to the agreement.lots of defect and even complaints about the defects were not rectified by the developer.called the handy man.now moving on putting some lamps some wiring works with the handyman.bought the lamps at Nilai 3 and Serdang.2 weeks before tinted the house.satisfied with the job.next week starts some painting and wiring work.hope my house will look better with the simple renovation work.

update: metal journey and losing weight...

2010-11-01T08:16:00.000+08:00

went to Borders yesterday with sis in law...surfing thru the book racks...found something interesting..bought it and hopefully i can finish reading it...knowledge is power....

my metal journey is enjoyable...

losing weight?hehhe i'm still trying....

metal journey

2010-10-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

start my metal journey today..

hope i can get thru this journey with bliss...

new resolution

2010-10-04T11:01:00.000+08:00

i've gained weight for the past few years...totally sucks...met the doctor for family planning...

was told to burn more carbs.....since now i'm totally obese with this hormone problems....at first it was really nervous since the total lost would mean disaster....but as a week past i'm more positive...

now i have lost 3 kg...

without exercise but no rice diet...

so this week would be no rice with exercise.....

hope i can reach the doctor's target...

Ya Allah help me get thru this...

sad memory :pls go away

2010-03-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….

C/O
Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

(terhanyut jiwa ini, terjatuh dihatinya)

guess wat i dun really like listening to Malay songs compared to English or Japanese songs but this one particular song really make my life up side down for awhile...thinking about my past...

sometimes sincerely i do think about it..

what if i didn't change my life and still stick to those old memories..

i wont be here like this..

maybe my life wont be like this

maybe i wont keep on remembering those bitter sweets memories so much..

sometimes i even cried out deep inside my heart...

why does it really happen?

why cant my life will be better without remembering that stupid piece of stains in life...

that's why i have to keep my faith strong so that i wont keep on falling in those serious deep scars in my heart...

oh dear heart please dun hurt anymore..

enough is enough...

dun ever regret it again again

but sometimes remembering is unavoidable...

update!

2010-02-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

randomly we heard about all the accident in life...but when it comes nearer to the so called festival that whether a religious one or not..we often heard about the increment of accident especially during the special task campaign...hm I've been wandering and now the questions really overwhelmed myself... but as i searched throughout the net i can say that it is all fated..due to the excitement of holiday maybe some of us neglect all the important things even we try to do all the pre cautions we still can escape the fate..so to my conclusion whatever happen in my life....cherish all your loves one so that we can accept whatever fate has determined us.

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my dear family

i really love you all a lot....

May Allah bless us always...

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tired

2009-11-26T19:08:00.003+08:00

sooo busy and trying to stabilizing my mood on writing and rambling again...ateh complaint asking me to update..so do my brother..hmm what can i say..lots of things happen but my brain just wont processed it and trying to digest all the problem seems to be so difficult especially when it involved your life..so happen if i managed to handle and settled all the problems seem wrong... i really miss myself my oneself and one and only self....I've been on medication afta my marriage due to the one and biggest accomplishment in marriage which is having a child...but i was not blessed with dat big accomplishment instead i was being tested with lots of unsolved matter...sometimes i do ask my self why?but according to one man....he quote "What is your why?" and i asked myself again what is my why?hmm thinking and dreaming doesn't seem to fit myself anymore becoz now part of me just doesnt like to think and dream..it is a really tiring thing to do becoz in the end is nothing....sometimes i really feel that I've been making lots of mistakes in my life but a part of me feel that i'm tired of trying....what can u do when you're tired of your life?*sigh**long paused*
so i have to think again before i manage to get the answer......

lets visit Malacca

2009-03-09T23:26:00.001+08:00

recent activity:

went back to Hubby's hometown.
visit Malacca town.
walked to Jonker Walk with hubby and sister in law.
enjoying burning calories.
release tension a bit.
visit m fave niece. Sofia Adriana.

hubby in Penang

2009-02-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

this is my latest hubby picture during his conference in Penang.Last year la actually.looking around in the picture folder and found his picture..just wanna upload because this year is our second year of marriage..he thinks he is so macho..haha so lets look at the macho boy..*he's pretending he didnt notice it during the time i snap his picture...

first time swimming

2009-02-22T21:28:00.003+08:00

today we all went to Tiara Beach Resort PD for a family gathering.we reached there at 3 o clock.went inside the resort room for about an hour and prepared for the bathing time..the picture uploaded were my niece picture named Sofia Adriana.She's now 5 months old and she's really good at capturing all the viewers heart with her fabulous smiles..she loves to smile so much..enjoy the picture..i have lots of picture that havent been updated..quite busy juggling my life...but i'll try my best to update later...enjoy these picture for the moment..gonna mish her so much..

Mannequin of Life

2009-02-11T01:08:00.002+08:00

Definition of mannequin:

A woman/ man who wears clothes to display fashions
A life-size dummy used to display clothes

We, believe it or not as a human,we will be mannequin when we walk through our daily life without completing our obligation towards Our Greatest Creator. When we do all those things and keeping distance with Him we will be lost in the right path. When we are lost we will keep on losing everything that we really had before. Sometimes we will bee keep on drifting apart from the reality of life. We will be walking constantly with our clothes on but the truth is we are naked and only Our Creator can see us like that. So don't lose your faith because mannequin is actually a puppet of life without a soul. We will lose our souls if we lose our faith to Our Creator.Bear in mind that we still know what we do wrong but when we became mannequin we already drifting apart from faith so we will working with our physical and brain. Brain without souls and faith is not human.
For those who was enlighten will be the special one that Our Creator love and not just anybody deserve it!
Always
Always
Always

Love and commit to Our Creator
Love and treasure your family

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

new habits

2009-02-07T20:37:00.002+08:00

i got a particular habits that sometimes it will make other person feel that i'm so petty or watsoever...but the things is my habits is something that will appear depends on my mood during dat time...especially now i'm staying with other person dat was surely not my family.
i've to adapt to all the things dat will be awkward such as

He loves to sing in the bathroom.
He prefer to go to night market.
He loves to watch football or sports so much.
He loves to go to work by motorcycle even though he knew that it will be raining cats and dogs at the end of the day.
He loves to go late for work even though some of his friends thot dat i'm the reason he went late for work.
He loves to watch his notebook even though i'm staying with him.

so this is why i develop new habits so that we can accomodate each other:

I will be lying on the bed surfing da net even though i have no idea wat to surf or to find with the google anymore.
I will only watch TV so estaticly when he is not in da house.
I prefer to call my parents more often to overcome this boredom.
I will try to find all the details about the things dat i can think of.

Happy New Year

2009-01-18T19:40:00.002+08:00

Below is the picture of the temple that i visit last holidays..The Ginkakuji Temple...so nice covered with snow.....hmm missing my vacation...hehehe
The picture of Mount Fuji... coming soon...with sakura flowers...hmm so nice..so beautiful...really grateful with Allah blessings....Hope i can visit Japan again...striving hard in saving money for 2009

new year resolution:

saving lots of money...

enjoying my life....

waiting for my brother to come back!

mouth ( keep it shut to avoid problem)

2008-12-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes becoz of mouth we lose our maturity and professionalism.but as for me..one thing that i'm really sure..i dont simply judging people by his or her appearance..as org melayu selalu kata kubur masing2...
we can see lots of people get into trouble the minute they open their mouth...
as we can still remember wat our ustaz or ustzah love to tell us...
especially in the month of fasting..
"jaga mulut tuh..kurangkn bercakap..bykkan berzikir"
this is wat our Prophet always do..
if u really want people to be inspired by the word that came out ur mouth...
think b4 u talk!
hahha same goes to the recycle slogan
Think before u throw!
dats all for now...let do some repentition so that u wont regret wat u hurt other people before this ok..
gambate kudasai.
oyasumi nasai!

new update on my trip to Japan

2008-11-21T14:18:00.000+08:00

My Small Casio Exilim View..Kawaii.....

2008-11-18T12:12:00.001+08:00

currrent update!

2008-11-18T11:54:00.002+08:00

im currently in Japan spending my holidays for two weeks in Japan or more specific my brother place in Gunma Ken,Maebashi....it is very chill here.the temperature is 11 degree celcius.tmrw will be 5 degree celcius..
hmm one lifetime oppoturnity.....
more update later

tag phobia

2008-07-29T19:30:00.003+08:00

the 20 question tag. (or whatever the actual name is)

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
nope
2. Have you ever felt stupid? Why?
always end up be the one that call the stupid guy

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
japan

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
go to japan

5. If you can travel through time WITHOUT changing anything. Where would u go & why?
the life before married..how i could change the fact i'm married to someone that doesnt have a heart.

6. If the weather is too hot, where will u go to make urself cooler?
my room

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
buy al the things i want and travel throughout the world

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
nope

9. Who are the top five people in the world you would wish to meet?
my greatest Creator
my greatest Creator
my greatest Creator
my greatest Creator
my greatest Creator

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
i'm tired of asking....

11. Which type of cars I love the most?
cool cars

12. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or a kiss?
none

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
dont know coz i'm always the one telling the other person

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my family

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
yes and it depend on the situation

16. What peeves you the most?
noisy people and boasting people

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
be more specific in life

18. What makes you feel disappointed?
being such a stupid fool

19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future?
no

20. Would you still be friend your best friend whom had betrayed your trust?
i would rather dont see them ever again

the 8 list tag. (or whatever the actual name is)

1. 8 random facts about me
tired la to boast myself

2. 8 things that scare me
being fooled
being played around
being loser
being sick
being loner
being stupid
being fat
being married to a heartless guy

3. 8 random musics at the moment
i'm yours
say( all i need)
break the ice
bye bye
touch my body
sexy can i
leavin
my love

4. 8 words i say the most
hmm
really
nope
wei
eh
erk
u suck
shit!

5. 8 things/people i treasure the most
myself
my family
my brothers
my friend
my pupils

6. 8 things as your wishlist
baby
buy mini cooper
buy caldina
getting slim and slender
be a good person
buy all the precious things
buy something special for my family

7. 8 'first time' things i ever did
oh shut up! so many things to answer!

another 20 question tag. (or whatever the actual name is)

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
my loved ones

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
lots of things

3) Where do you wish to get married?
married already

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
hmm

5) Are you in love?
maybe

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
fig and olive in singapore

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
english grammar

8) What is your full name?
fareeza

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
both of them

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
my creator

11) Christina or Britney?
hahah wat a weird question

12) Do you do your own laundry?
yup

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
japan

14) Hugs or kisses?
hmm

15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
curx
a shy man
so shy
and so shy
and so shy
but surely deeply in love wit my beloved kak diah

16)8 things I am passionate about:
my own life....

17)8 things I say too often:
ayarkkss...

18) 8 books I've read recently:
email
flyers
and magazines
hehhehe

19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
well, this depends on my mood actually.

20)8 things I learned last year:
being such a shit person in life so that u can survive the IPSMB life that really sucks...
hahhah lazy to answer already...

the 1 list tag. (or whatever the actual name is)

1 minit yang lalu, apa anda buat
answering the tags above.

1 hari yang lalu, apa anda buat
marking like mad

1 hari lagi apa anda akan buat
key in marks for my pupils

1 orang yang terakhir menelefon kamu
my colleague

1 makanan yang baru dibeli
cuttlefish

1 barang yang baru hilang
nothing

1 cerita yang baru ditonton
love guru

1 hal terakhir yang digossipkan
the pupils behaviour

1 kata yang ingin diluahkan
hahahh stunning!

1 buku yang sudah dibaca
refer to "8 books I've read recently" above.

1 penyakit yang sering datang
fever

1 keinginan
relax

hah wat a relieved.....i dont like those stupid tag... i dont want to be tag for another 5 months...
i'm tag phobia!~!~@!@!@

tag carnival will begin.....

2008-07-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

i've been tag for quite some time...i'm picking p my courage to answer all the tag...
yet another tag from "ayang" kak dee...

1. nama-nama timangan oleh org tersayang
- iza
-sayang (called by my hubby only)
-aie

2. anda seorang yang...
- quite blur.
-pretty hectic person when it comes to something that i like.
-loving and caring
-but sometimes pretty scary especially when i'm mad..(ask my hubby)

3. insan teristimewa. describe apa yg membuatkan die terlalu istimewa di mata anda.
- he's quite adorable.
-he doesnt talk so much..
-he's cool.
-he's always there for me.

4. makanan favourite anda
- hmm ask my hubby

5. favourite color
- red
-black
-blue

6. favourite song
- anything that soothes my ears

7. sikap yg membuatkan anda stress
- hmm alot but as time goes by just ignore it..stress will kill you!

8. 3 bende yg mesti ade dalam handbag anda
- alots of things but for sure it is important

9. kali terakhir anda menangis beriya-iya..kenapa??
last saturday when my beloved uncle died!

tribute to my uncle!

2008-07-21T20:12:00.001+08:00

its been three years since his wife passed away..lastly due to his love to his beloved wife;last saturday he passed away...due to acute myocardiac infection..he left his 5 children.i was very devastated coz he was so good to me and close to me like my father.i would like to dedicate this song to all my family
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BYE BYE
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tribute to CIk Madi
@>----may you rest in peace..i'll cherish every memories hat i had wit u..love u so much...
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This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I'm Yours (*i love this song so much)

2008-07-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

well you done done me and you bet i felt it
i tried to get you but you're so hot that i melted
i fell right through the cracks
and i'm trying to get back
before the cool done run out
i'll be giving it my bestest
nothin's going to stop me but devine intervention
i reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait, i'm yours

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
ah la peaceful melody
its your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

so i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait i'm sure
theres no need to complicate
our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

i been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
and bendin over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
so i drew a new face and laughed
i guess what i'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
its what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

i won't hesitate no more
no more it cannot wait i'm sure
theres no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours

3 months update...wink wink*

2008-06-08T22:14:00.003+08:00

as usual the same punch line when blogging.

.been quite busy with all the school chores..

(hahha see for urself whether this is the same reason i've been using coz its been awhile since my last update)

anyway these three months i've been surfing the net ...

i tried to write an entry but end up with log out.

hehheh such a lazy woman...

but today i am so eager to update my blog...

no wit an interesting entry but a simple one...

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my in laws (both twins) had pregnant...

end of this year i'm goin to get two nieces...

lets pray for both of them...

**** i've to be strong for myself*****

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kak dee is goin to get married end of the year too...

hope i can be there...

its been a long time since we last gather together...

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to make up for my sadness i've been listening to this song for quite a some time...the wording is so nice....

i want to dedicate this song to kak dee and lynda....

hope both of u like it too.....

missing u a lot....

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Di sana pungguk menanti

Mengharap bulan membalas rindu di hati

Di sini aku berdiri

Menunggu penuh dengan kesabaran
Tanpa manis madah

Janji yang puitis

Tuk persembahan

Hanya ketulusan

Sekeping hati suci
Aku

Berikan kasih

Kalau itu yang kau mahu dari ku

Aku

Berikan cinta

Untuk membahagiakan hari mu

Aku

Sayang dirimu (menyayangimu)

Biarpun nafas ku sampai terhenti

Akan ku kota janji kita

Mendirikan Taj Mahal cinta

Seteguh kasih

Shah Jehan kepada Mumtaznya
Terasa indah pabila berdua

Semakin tiba saat bahagia

Merai cinta kita

1st Anniversary

2008-03-10T17:58:00.002+08:00

today is our first year anniversary....
one year already..
times really flies even faster than our thots..
miss those precious moment...
now still far...
only time can heal our heart together...
thanx for being there for me for one whole year even distance is our accompany...
no words can describe our sacrifices...
but the most important thing is that the loves that we share together...
just keep in mind..
love is complicated but
the truth is love that bind our heart together
even though our soul is departed...
lets pray hard so we can really be together...
so our loves wont be shattered into pieces by the end of time...

currently

2008-03-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

青山テルマ feat.SoulJa - そばにいるね

作詩：Soulja,青山テルマ
作曲：Soulja

*あなたのこと　私は今でも思い続けているよ
いくら時流れて行こうと　I’m by your side baby いつでも
So.　どんなに離れていようと
心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　寂しいんだよ
So baby please　ただ hurry back home*

#Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you　だからこそ　心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ#

[SoulJa]
んなことよりお前の方は元気か?　ちゃんと飯食ってるか?
ちくしょう、やっぱ言えねぇや
また今度送るよ　俺からのLetter

[青山テルマ]
過ぎ去った時は戻せないけれど　近くにいてくれた君が恋しいの
だけど　あなたとの距離が遠くなる程に　忙しくみせていた
あたし逃げてたの
だけど　目を閉じる時　眠ろうとする時　逃げきれないよ　あなたの事
思い出しては　一人泣いてたの

(*くり返し)
(#くり返し)

[SoulJa]
不器用な俺　遠くにいる君
伝えたい気持ちそのまま言えずに　君は行っちまった
今じゃ残された君はアルバムの中

[青山テルマ]
アルバムの中　納めた思い出の
日々より　何げない一時が　今じゃ恋しいの
And now　あなたからの電話待ち続けていた
携帯にぎりしめながら眠りについた
あたしは　どこも行かないよ　ここにいるけど
見つめ合いたいあなたの瞳
ねぇわかるでしょ?　あたし待ってるよ

(#くり返し)

[SoulJa]
俺はどこも行かないよ　ここにいるけれど　探し続けるあなたの顔
Your 笑顔　今でも触れそうだって思いながら手を伸ばせば　君は

(*くり返し×2)

tagged again!

2008-02-21T17:15:00.002+08:00

as usual surfing someone else blog make me update my blog...serves me right...way soooo lazy...now am here scribbling again in my blog....hehhe

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
my future in law

2. What were you doing at 0800?
talking to my hubby...

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
lunch at 4pm hehhe..

4. What happened to you in 2006?
the most merrier year coz at dat time i'm with my friends...i miss them plus getting engaged wit hubby and at the end of the year my mum in law died.....

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
if you dont want to do learn you can get out of my class!(scolding my pupils)

6. How many beverages did you have today?
plain water plus roibo

7. What color is your hairbrush?
pink

8.What was the last thing you paid for?
paid for my lunch...

9. Where were you last night?
out wit my family for dinner!

10. What color is your front door?
brown color

11. Where do you keep your change?
in my handbag and coin bank.

12. What's the weather like today?
hot

13. What's the best ice-cream flavor?
vanilla and strawberry plus chocolate

14. What excites you?
depends on my mood...

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
yup...but my hair is already short...hehhe

16. Are you over the age of 25?
yup

17. Do you talk a lot?
Depends on time, place & whom.

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
nope.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yup my pupil and friend

20. Do you make up your own words?
emm.. depends, if i feel like it i think.

21. Are you a jealous person?
nope

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'.
along,azuan,amin

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
kartina,khairul

24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
hubby

25. What does the last text message you received say?
i'm sleepy!

26. Do you chew on your straw?
nope.

27. Do you have curly hair?
nope, straight.

28. Where's the next place you're going to?
bed.

29. Who's the rudest person in your life?
myself

30. What was the last thing you ate?
nugget

31. Will you get married in the future?
already married

32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
Korean Movie

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
do i need to?

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
everyday

35. Are you currently depressed?
nope

36. Did you cry today?
nope

37. Why did you answer and post this?
'cause mrcurx tagged me & i got no idea to update my blog. :p

been tagged and one of the reason to update my blog!

2008-02-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

while surfing sis Diah's blog i found out dat i've been tagged..ayarkhss...such a lazy bum as me hehhe.. i prefer to read other people's blog rather than updating moy bored and dull life...actually i've been infected by MMMMM virus...no antidote can help me to cure it...anybody wanna lend some help?

First Phase
This linky love trail rules:-
When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!

Those Who Dunnit
Limadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
Chinneeq
Dora-zooropazoo
Babyshern
Farah (me)
Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmy
hana ni mo nai
LindoshSlebet
cepoter
hUmmY
dayana
ELLE LIZA
Scarlet Kiss
Nabil
Diah
Fareeza

Second Phase
First Name -> Fareeza
Nickname ->aie, iza, fareeza and even fareez ( my chemist teacher used to called me that)
Name you wish you had ->hmm i didnt think any other name suits me...
What do people normally mistake your name as -> FAZIRA
Birthday -> 25 January 182
Birthplace -> Johor Bahru
Time of Birth -> 9.35 am
Single or taken -> Taken and married some more...
Zodiac sign -> Aquarius

Your Appearance

How tall are you - 155 cm
Wish you were taller - yup
Eye color - light brown
Eye color you want - didnt think of any...
Natural Hair color - Dark Brown
Current Hair color - Dark Brown
Short or long hair - long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color - blue and red
Curly,Straight,Wavy - straight
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair - none!
Glasses or contacts - glasses
Do you wear make-up - yes
Ever had hair extensions - nope
Paint your nails - always when i'm bored!

In the opposite gender

What color eyes - light brown
What color hair - black
Shy or Outgoing - shy
Looks or personality - personality
Sexy or Cute - both
Serious or Fun - both
Older or Younger than you - never an issue
A turn on - havent thought of it....hahah even i'm married to him now...heheh
A turn off - annoying attitude!

This or that

Flowers or Chocolate - both
Pepsi or Coke - pepsi
Rap or Rock - rock
Relationship or One night stand - Relationship
School or Work - work
Love or Money - both
Movies or Music - music
Country or City - Country
Sunny or Rainy days - both
Friends or Family - both

Have you ever

Lied - yes
Stole something - yup
Smoked - yup during secondary school
Hurt someone close to you - yup after he hurt me!
Broke someones heart - yup and always
Had you heart broken - yup
Wondered what was wrong with you - nope
Wish you were a prince/princess - nope..such a fairytale roles doesnt suits me....
Liked someone who was taken - yup
Shaved your head - nope and wont do it till da day i die..
Been in love - yup and love is something subjective
Used chopsticks - yup
Sang in the mirror to yourself - nope singing while driving only...hehhe

Favorites

Flower - rose and tulips
Candy - barley candy
Song - anything dat soothes my ears
Scent -Issey Miyaki Summer
Color - red, pink and black
Movie - Cj7
Singer - so many
Word - hahha speechless
Junk food - nugget
Website - this site
Lotion - ZA Brand
Animal - nothing

Ever cried over someone - yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - nothing
Do you think you're attractive - nope
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - Snow Queen
Do you play any sports - dont have time..so tired nowadays..

III

The rules:-
Link to your tagger and post these rules.- List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.

easily intimidate by small things
loves to hang around alone doing the windows shopping
listening to music
loves to settle all work earlier than dateline
get myself busy
surfing and reading other people's blog
surfing for new things in the net..
loves sleeping alot...

8 people I'm tagging:

nobody since everybody i've known have been tagged....

Birthday Wishes.....

2008-01-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

Specially dedicated for the Capricorns and Aquarius Zodiac.....
Happy 16th Birthday for Hakim
Happy 10th Birthday for Ayun
Happy 26th Birthday to Nazri
Happy Birthday to Kak Zura
*******************************
May all ur wishes came true...

Specially Dedicated for My Hubby

2008-01-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

Alicia Keys Lyrics

this song is specially dedicated for my hubby...
9 months afta marriage but our relationship still will be a long distance relationship...
hmm sorry..but i'll try my best to make out the best for our beginning marriage journey...

2007 Roundup

2007-12-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

one hell year is the nickname for 2007
attended one year KPLI
been to a horrible places on earth-->IPSMB
met all those backstabber and people who thinks they were so good in judging other people..

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but sure have some good memories that give me the strength to endure all those difficulties...

my two best buddies... lynda and kak dee ...love u 2 so much...
Married TO my LOVED one... my HUbbY...hope we can face all the difficulties in our marriage....
posted back to my hometown.... even though it means i'll be far away from my hubby...but trust me dear...i'll be back for good..when our fate brought us back together...

last but not least..wanna wish all my friends...

tattoo

2007-12-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

Oh oh oh
No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you
(I’ll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you
(I’ll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do .. oh

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken yeah
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction .. don’t look back
I loved you once needed protection .. no, no
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

I can’t waste time so give it a moment .. I can’t waste time
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done .. no need to worry
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction .. don’t you ever look back
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

i'm back

2007-12-08T09:42:00.000+08:00

yup..i'm back...
i'm back for good..
finally i'm back home..
such a relieved...
no word can really describe my true feeling...
i wont be going to that place again..
finally can breathe the similar air..
the place that i've once been were...
really da most stupid place on earth
da most bastard place..
i really dun appreciate the experience being there...
i hope i wont be there again...

****waiting for my posting******

raya 2007 pictures

2007-10-18T07:39:00.001+08:00

this is our first raya together as husband and wife..managed to take a picture together..hehhe
this is our family picture even though only there are only 5 of us...my father in law and newly wed couple with all my niece and nephew went for raya.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin

2007-10-10T10:13:00.000+08:00

quite busy..doesn't have time to update this blog..
finished my practicum..went back to college..
now am back at my house..
going back to JB and Malacca..
for hari raya celebration...
so here i just wanna say
"selamat hari raya"
-maaf zahir batin-
drive carefully to ur hometown..
cherish this moment with ur loved one...

stupid new procedure.....i hate it....

2007-09-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

i went back to kl last thursday..as usual with all those super careful checking by the jpj,puspakom and immigration so da journey went on smoothly...one thing i realized is that this always happen when something bad had already happen...maybe it can prevent the bad thing from happen again but until when?the questions is until when?do all the people's involved will keep in doing this routine forever?the question is that if the government wanted this procedure to be implement why dont they implement it in a more decent and proper way...for example check in before boarding like when you travel with the flight....it is better dat way..rather than letting allda passenger waiting as if they have done some criminal...i think da most not proper way is checking ur ID...what the hell is that?every week i travel by bus so i have to go through da same procedure?why dont u implement it da proper way?sometimes when the checking ID or procedure being done as the passenger are going to drive the bus?why dont u take the passenger particular so when accident happen u can recognize the passenger right away.....think people...just because u're rich and u dont travel by bus so dis rich people just ignore those unreliable procedure....better think and analyze all ur procedure again......

ramadhan is here again!

2007-09-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

times really flies....ramadhan is here....the most waited time for Muslim to heal all those unhealthy way of eating and lead a healthy life....in this month we can also add our 'pahala' for our eternal life.....today my last observation really end the most exotic and one lifetime experience being observed 2 days in a row...give a good claps to both of us...my dearest sister linda and myself...thanx to our beloved madam for her hard work eventhough she is pregnant....
this ramadhan is my first ramadhan afta became someone's wife..hope i can do or make da best out of myself...
watever it is happy ramadhan to all Muslim throughout the world...may our good deed will be blessed by our Creator(Allah)....

3 weeks to go

2007-09-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

got another 3 weeks to go before my practicum ends..hehhe quite sad eventough it was very tiring experience...da boys in my class was so blur..hehhe guess what..they're form the last class..slowest in learning...so hyper naughty and with all their dialect...at first they was so hard to be controlled but as time goes by,they are quite ok..just need o be etra patience and extra fast to recognise when they will attack their friends...after all it wAS such an interesting experience...this experience we wont gain eventough we're going to be future teacher's in other places...at first i'm feeling lost in da jungle of hope *hehhe curik tajuk novel*)..when i gave instructions they will surely question me back with the following famous dialect:

teacher, nok tepek ke ketas ni?
teacher, nok salin hok ane?
teacher, pehe(*pahang*) as i was asking tthe states in msia?
teacher, roba as i was asking to erase the blackboard.
teacher, mempele (*mempelam*)

eventhough i'll try to adapt to their dialect whenever i'll try to say using their dialect sure they laugh like hell...they said it sound so bad and sometimes quite *lucah*...i'll missing them after this...hehhehe

i'm bored!

2007-08-25T09:58:00.000+08:00

I AM
53%
BUMBLEBEE Take the Transformers Quiz

i am sad!

2007-08-09T19:47:00.000+08:00

as usual my hubby will left me out in every decision he made...it really make me feel sad and angry!he always saying sorry for thousand times! do you think sorry can solve everything? better u bluff me rather than telling me the truth! i am feeling depressed...

why teachers always being blamed?

2007-08-06T19:44:00.001+08:00

this days the students just doesn't respect teachers especially when the teacher instruct them..it happen frequently especially when it involved learning the core subject...when teachers punished them surely their parent will go to media and report the teachers behavior..the question here is that..as parent we should find what is the main problem when the teachers punished ur child?why ur child behave like that?it happen becoz the children nowadays are being pampered...
those days we really respect our teacher..
if u think u can manage ur time and life maybe u should try to educate or home school ur child?
whatever it is u shld know that teachers are human..
they also have need and emotion..
they are willing to sacrifice themselves to teach other human so that the human can be somebody someday~!
of course to be someone there are lots of factors and we as human still need each other to survive...

i'm wandering

2007-08-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

why some people can be obsessed about something that are not suitable for their age?
doesn't they have better things to do rather than be childish?
shouldn't they pay respect for somethings that belongs to the others?
why should they copy or imitate the others?hahha bullshit

last weekend went to Ampang..see my niece and nephew...miss them so much..the baby has really grown up...she's becoming more chubby than before...
went back to my inlaw house...for some ocassion..
it is so tiring but i have to be there for my hubby...
there will be 12 days more to go before one week school holiday...
cant wait...

why do i feel bad?

2007-07-27T18:39:00.000+08:00

it is really frustrating when da guys:

went out with his male friends
did not tell you where did he goes?
only tell you when you found some hints from his friends.
always tell lies in desperate condition
likes to play decent making me feel like i am a bastard

these days

2007-07-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

rite now busy with my practicum..
busy with all the chores like
1.prepare lesson plan
2.prepare worksheet
3.prepare my mental before became the mentalist supreme
4.with all the necessary things in life
so my life is very tiresome...
hope i can make it thru...

super cutey baby

2007-07-02T17:58:00.000+08:00

hmm while upgrading my windows to vista windows..looking at some captured pictures...found my fave super cutey niece...miss her so much..her name is aqilah...my poksu's only daughter...so cute and chubby...i really hope i can get one baby gurl like her..let's pray hard....hmm missing her so much..maybe i shld go and visit her during weekend....cant wait...lalalla she's so cute..

special entry....to LOVEBIRD

2007-06-08T23:33:00.001+08:00

note to aie: i'll only sleep like a beast when i work at night shift. heheh. :P

hehe those sentence were pick up from curx's blog...

and dis special entry dedicated to kak diah and mr curx... * lagu kene carik sndiri*

"For You I Will (Confidence)"

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all

Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet

As what I can't have

Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair

round your finger

Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you

What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter

From all of the clutter in my head

Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes

Like a water bed

Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways

a thousand times, no more camouflage

I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

And cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

You always want what you can't have

But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

For you I will

For you I will

For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall

And create a mood I would

Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah

That's what I'd do,

That's what I'd do,

That's what I'd do,

To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

And cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

You always want what you can't have

But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

For you I will

For you I will

For you I will

ravMon

2007-06-05T13:56:00.001+08:00

ish bosan betol ngan si ravmon ni..asl delete ada lagi...suke betol ravmon kat drive aku...aku dah try memacam cara utk eliminate ravmon ni.setakat ni berjaya sekejap je ar...kang xbape kurun ada balik...rasa cm nk format balik sume ..tp sebb dah byk kali sgt buat bosan plak...aku ada search juga bberapa prograM yg aku rasa dapat membantu tp sume ok sementara...plus skang ravmon log plak yg keep on bugging aku nye drive..wei ravmon tlg lah blah dari idop aku...tensen btol...

smp bebila pun aku xkan rindu pada ko la RAVMON..

Durjana and celaka punye RAVMON....

shit...

Visit Malaysia 2007

2007-05-31T02:50:00.001+08:00

from besut went back to kajang..stop for one day..and da next day went to Bedong, Kedah...visit my auntie's at Baling, Kedah for 2 days in a row...then went to Penang...for sight seeing...then rush back to kajang...rest for one night then went back to JB.....tmrw going to Kota Tinggi and on friday will be going back to Kajang..Saturday went to Kluang and rush back to  Malacca...

*there is some pics...i'll upload later*..^lazy bum^

ratu gigi..anjuran BPG (21-24 May 2007)

2007-05-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

hmm terkejut beruk giler time diumumkan antara ratu gigi di IPSMB..hahha memula duk gelakkan org cm biasa ar keje aku..bak kate linda and kak diah..gelak chucky...hehhe blush giler time nk gi depan..malu seh...tapi lawak gak..xpenah2 dpt...anyway proud gak..pengarah siap tanya terkejut sgt ke dpt jd ratu?mesti ar terkejut sebb aku duk gelak2 kn org lain dpt jd ratu..tapi apa2 pun budak TESL bolot 5 adiah ratu gigi..gempak tuh...
ni plak pennent dr Kementerian Kesihatan Terengganu..thanx alot..ada souvenir dr negeri kelahiran ayah...balik nk gantung ni..bukan salu dpt...hehhe
ni plak pic bebudak pj KPLI-sr yg buat persembahan buat perot pecah..u guys rawk da world..cool..nice to get to know some of u...
* utk kak diah...jgn komen bebyk...memalukan..*

bored institution

2007-05-21T08:15:00.001+08:00

living in dis place will make u sick....will make u meet psycho bitch and all the bad things dat u dun want to encounter n ur whole life...it is becoz sometimes the feeling of being a good human being cannot be nurtured here...once u try to be sainted as possible..da more u will get da feeling of going to kill urself by the end of the day....i hate myself so much dis few months...there something inside me dat killing my good self slowly....as u can see...living n dis place...da decision always last minute and sometimes da decision doesnt benefit anybody who is man on earth...i hate this feeling so much...

i'm lazy....

2007-05-11T08:34:00.000+08:00

ya i've to admit i'm lazy becoz i've been so slow in updating my blog entry..it is becoz i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooo LAZY..hehhehe.plus dont know want to scribble here...another reason that make me lazy..hehhehe.

i hate this place so much

2007-04-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

i dont know why but i really hate this place so much...it is a place that u cannot even breathe properly with all the sarcastic people..they are so snobbish like hell...always pretending that they care for you but actually they're not..they love to see you fall sick or hurt...it is their main objective in life...
i really hope that i will be far away from this place soon..
really pray to get the hell out of here soon...

the most stupid things

2007-04-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

there are few things in life that u shouldnt do to other people especially if you regard the other person as ur friends..not so called friends but treasure your friends.

do play bitchy
do not back stabbed your friends
do not bad mouthed your friends
do not leave your friends even when you're in bad situation
do not bluff your friends
don't act as if you can survive without your friends but actually you're hurt...
dont go around as if other people can accept your stupid action
dont be a stupid fucking bitch!!!!

just cherish your life...i'll dedicate this song to the bitch out there..."What Goes Around Comes Around" by Justin Timberlake....

What is Your Color?

2007-04-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

Fareeza, your true color is Green!

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

leisure session

2007-03-31T08:55:00.000+08:00

bowling session at mines..as for me and linda it is time to shop till you drop..heheh eventough we still didnt get our allowance..pity us..but we do get some dress for us..pic above is taken during our leisure time at mines arcade...kak diah is tring this dancing machine..awkward but sure fun....

this is when mr fard tried to join kak diah..hehhe next time we should try again...gambate kudasai

pic taken at mamak restaurant...makan session afta bowling session..eventhough mr curx (next to red jacket guy) was trying so hard to finish his food...look like he is gong to choke with the food(*hehehe*)

last pic taken by my hubby...everybody is busy with their own fave moment...hehhe *i think lah*

double tag

2007-03-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

weh xaci asik kene tag..dis time dua org plak tuh..one is mrcurx..da other one is kak diah..mmg tgh mls nk update blog...br balik panjat gunung Tebu...sakit giler satu badan...now balik plak kajang...lagi la sakit badan tp nk jmp suami...hehhe..okla nk jwb tag plak...

Tag 1 - What's In Your Bag (alamak nk kene double check ;))
Okay, here goes.

duit
sweets
mobile phone
license (kalau kene drive ar)
notebook
brg2 cm moisturizer and deodorant ( kalau travel)

Tag 2 - 4 things you will not leave behind.

Wallet
Mobile phone
notebook
Watch

ok dah update..thanx for tagging me...do tag me again some other time (hahah ayat perli kalau xreti base gak xtahu ar kn)adios..chow dulu...

afta a month

2007-03-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

lamanye xupadate blog..tgh xde mood nk tulis dalam english..dah lebih sebulan xupdate...semlm br ada mmod nak surf blog org...hehhe xjengah pun blog sndiri....seblm ni bz ngan persiapan kawin...plus dgn nervous nk jd wife org lagi...memula nk upload kad jemputan tp sbb byk sgt xsettle terus lupa smp la ke hari majlis...kengkwn dah mintak pic2 kawin...tp sebb mls sgt2 ditambah dgn tugas baru...dgn ziarah famili lepas majlis + asgmt yg setimbun....terus jd cm bengong...tp yg paling kesian ialah suami sndiri ...kena tinggal padahal baru seminggu duk sesama...dah la die duk sana sesorg...tp tu ar...terpaksa..setahun je kn...

hmm sebb dah lama sgt xupdate so mrcurx tagged me...
thanx for the tag..mmg ada niat nk update tp lom sempat agi...

tag: 6 weird stuff bout yourself

'shopaholic' giler ...pantang gi kedai...xkira ar kedai apa...asl nmpk cm variety sure stop by...xleh tahan nafsu utk membeli...hehhe especially kedai baju and kedai yg jual barang2 yang comey2...mula la dtg addicted nk shopping ...*mujur dah kawin ni suami kawal skit kalau xsure abis duit* hehehhe thanx syg...
suke tido xberselimut except on certain condition cm nyamuk or sejuk...hhehe tp selalunye rasa lemas bile berselimut...xbebas nk kuak lentang atau diving....hehehhe tp thanx to roomate br sebb memahami...hahah
selalu sgt beli brg2 yang dah mmg ada tp still rasa brg2 lama tu xelok walau pun masih elok...membazir betol...pastu brg2 br tuh bg kat org2
bile dah bercakap tuh ada masa smp xleh stop...penat tp still xleh stop....kadang rasa mulut cm nk plaster je pun ye juga...
suke surf net sambil meniarap atas katil..xleh buang habit ni spt juga suke baca apa2 dlm gelap....kalau baca dalam terang cm bosan je..bile gelap2 baru ada thrill...
suke memenatkan diri...sebb selalu travel jejauh..walau pun smp body ni dah ckp stop..xfunction tp tetap gak nk travel...hehhe unresistable....

....tag ni xditujukan utk sesapa agi dah sebb dah xtahu nk tag sape...dah lama xol so xde mood sgt nk tag sesapa....

update

2007-02-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

i've been busy lately with all the good and bad chores....its been tiring like hell...i really miss my peaceful and calm life..miss my family so much...i'm feeling depressed with all the listed things that need to be settled....number of things need to be handled during my 4 days holiday..as if i manage to settle it all on time...the journey to my hometown would be very depressing...my buttocks will feeling numb...

wedding invitation
test all the outfit for wedding
meet the cooker...( need to know all the list of stuff need to be bought)
get my solemnisation outfit....
hand over the wedding invitation to my friends
buy all the titbits needed for the wedding
go buy the books for kpli
finish all the homework
download all the korean episode
settle the barang hantaran

my life here is pretty hectic and so tiring...hope i can manage my wedding reception on time...

happy new Year!

2007-01-20T16:14:00.001+08:00

its been really long since last update..so currently i'm staying far away from my family,fiancee and even my friends..my best buddies...miss them alot...its also have been a tiring period of time since i didnt get enuff rest...starting next week my life will be very busy with all the workload..hope i can manage it...at first i thots of writing lots of things but da mood is not here yet..so got to go...later update peeps...
p:s/ i have new roomate...she's very sporting..missing her lots...

messy life of me

2007-01-11T21:24:00.001+08:00

around 7 am sent my mom to school..speeding back home just to get the continous sleeps that i've miss...

currently my new hobby is sleeping...sleeping like a log...

i prefer sleeping than eating and surfing the net...

strange but i really really loves this new hobbies

i can sleep eventough i have 5 minutes break..i gonna miss this new hobbies next week..

then around 9 get up..went to Pejabat Kadi Daerah..waiting for my turn to have an interview..

So many forms to submit and there are already number of couples at the counter...so i went straight to the counter..checking my forms..all the necessary forms and document are already there..clipped all the documents...wait for my turn..while waiting i suddenly heard a few couples were memorizing all the doa and rukun that are going to be ask...

ayarkhss i didnt make any preparation..just sitting there while thinking..

all the couples seems very happy going to register their future marriage..but deep down inside me i feel sad...i dun know why but i nearly cried..then my brain started functioning properly..then i heard my name called..

i answered and the registrar said hmm wait for a while..i need to interview this couples first!

damn man..why shld u called me if u decide to interview other person first...

then i started to imagining and thinking again..lately i've been thinking alot and sometimes it feel like daydreaming...

i was asking myself are u sure u want to do this?half part of me started raging inside while the other part just feeling sorry towards my fiancee..how can i abandoned him when his mom already gone...

the second time my name was called,the same man was going to interview me..so the interview start as soon as i got there...the interview was going smooth even he tries to flirt...i just not in da mood to have some flirty situation man...i really wanted to get out of this place as soon as possible....

finish all the procedures and finally i can submit the marriage forms to tok kadi! but the half side of me still not sure whether i am doing the right things...

then in the evening went to my lil bro hostel...check a few little detail from him..then went to get my wedding outfit..try fitting and the wedding outfit seems to be bigger...ayarkhss did i lose weight?so need to alter the outfit on february..b4 da wedding reception..i'm going to lose weight again...hope everything will be as schedule...

happy new year

2007-01-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2007...
this is the first entry for 2007...
missing lots of things...
gain lots of things too...
i do hope this new year will be shower with bliss and prosperity..
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take this oppoturnity to wish happy birthday and becoming birthday to all my listed friends...
5 jan-my beloved brother Hakim
6 jan- my fiancee niece
7 jan- my best buddy nazri
9 jan- annie and liza aris birthday
10 jan- kak zura birthday
15 jan-my cousin birthday
23 jan-shasha birthday
25 january- my 25th birthday
27 jan- wani's birthday
29 jan- aunt timah's birthday
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dedicate happy birthday songs and may all ur wish came true....

the busy me....

2006-12-27T08:07:00.000+08:00

been very busy..right now i'm having fever...with all the coughing, sneezing and high body
temperature..i just came back from malacca attending my fiancee mother's funeral..it was very tiring week...now am back at home to settle evrything before my journey for one year start...i will be very far away from everyvody...wish me luck in everything...
the wedding reception will be on as usual except that i wont get the oppoturnity to prepare for it..
i am gonna miss my current life...but i need to change it for the sake of my future...

I.C.U

2006-12-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

it has been quite awhile since my last blogging...i've been blank to write anything and today something happen dat make me realize so many things..(* is my sentence make sense?*)...today i went to visit my fiancee mum's dat have been hospitalized since last thursday due to the virus infection in her lungs...yesterday she had a heart attack so her condition has worsened...so this morning my whole family went to Kajang Hospital to visit her....at first i was scared to pay her a visit in the ICU...but after thinking i think it would be better if i pay her a visit...so i brave myself to go inside the ICU...(*jeng jeng, is this suitable for a sad condition????*) dang u really suck aie!but actually i was consoling myself...pity me....the moment i reach to her mom 'sick bed',suddenly my tears start to flow down...i dont know why but it was really sad...really cant help it..i saw his mum lying helplessly with all the wires attached to her body...damn this technology!actually at that time i feel so helpless coz i cant do anything..i was feelimg numb and my brain stopped functioning normally and my heart aches so much see her like dat...i was thinking why and how can she lay down helplessly like dat...i miss watching her at home really concerning about other people..Ya Allah,ampunkanlah dosa hambamu ini.....i will visit her again tmrw..i hope she can recover....

irreplaceable

2006-12-17T14:02:00.000+08:00

My current favourite song..dedicated to someone that thinks he is da only person dat are meant to be for me...love this song so much..here's the lyrics....

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To the leftTo the left
To the leftTo the left
Mmmm to the left

Everything you own in the box to the left

In the closet, thats my stuff

Yes, if I bought it, then please don't touch (don't touch)
And keep talking that mess, thats fine

Could you walk and talk, at the same time?

And its my name thats on that jag

So go move your bags, let me call you a cab
Standing in the front yard, telling me

How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout

How I'll never ever find a man like you

You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I could have another you in a minute

Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I can have another you by tomorrow

So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin

'You're irreplaceable
So go ahead and get gone

Call up that chick, and see if shes home

Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know

What did you thinkI was putting you out for?

Because you was untrue

Rolling her around in the car that I bought you

Baby, drop them keys

Hurry up, before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard, telling me

How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout

How I'll never ever find a man like you

You got me twisted
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I could have another you in a minute

Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I'll have another you by tomorrow

So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'

You're irreplaceable
So since I'm not your everything

How about I'll be nothing? nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)

Baby i won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)

I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)

Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)

Replacing you is so easy
To the left to the left

To the left to the left
Mmmmm

To the left to the left

Everything you own in the box to left
To the left to the left

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking

You're irreplaceable
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I could have another you in a minute

Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I can have another you by tomorrow

So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin' (baby! hey yea)
You must not know 'bout me

You must not know 'bout me

I could have another you in a minute

Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You can pack all your bags we're finished

Cause you made your bed now lay in it

I could have another you by tomorrow

Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'

You're irreplaceable

sometimes

2006-12-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

its been one week since my last update..i've been busy with all the vacation..hehhe went to meet my fiancee..missing him so much..buy some stuff for my wedding reception in three months times..nervous...but was really busy with all the little details dat need to be attend..went to buy some clothes for my family and also 'rozet' for all the kendarat...i've also order the wedding invitation..hope can have it early then fill up the invitation lists...wish me luck...start my second semester next week....going to be really busy...

a hard day

2006-12-06T09:00:00.001+08:00

been busy with the cleaning,painting da house...especially my cozy room..went out for helping my mum manage her bank account..helps my dad settle his mobile bill..and last but not least..making sure my laundry are done for the whole day...so tired like hell but i just cant sleep...so waiting for my fiancee to reply my messages..lots of messages i've been sending but he just keep mum...dat make me really furious and i really hate him..so when he called i started to get mad...end up we're fighting over small matter...

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recently i've been downloading this japan drama..simple and nice..

love the actress face..so kawari

summerset bay and blah blah

2006-12-06T09:00:00.000+08:00

last weekend with the whole family to summerset bay at Rompin for the District Education Office.This is the first occasion i'm participating since last four years..as normal malaysian event or gathering the same style of people and talking or chit chatting..the only differences is that i've been longing to go to this resort..hehhe ever since i saw this places on my way back to father's hometown...finally i got the oppoturnity surely that i wont miss....really enjoy the stay there...so dis whole week i was busy cleaning the house..painting my room...for the biggest event in march..arghh so tired...next week i'll be going to malacca for three days...

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yesterday i went to da health center for hiv test..hehhe..da nurse that attend me was very nice..becoz she keeps on chit chatting while she buried the needle inside my middle finger..actually i've been longing to feel this since my last experiment in secondary school...hehhe really miss those memories..

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last weekend also my two schoolmate has got married..wish them ..happy marriage...hope ur marriage last forever...sorry cant make it..

what i've been feeling thru this relationship

2006-11-24T12:48:00.000+08:00

i've been engaged to this guy for the last 7 months..we're planning getting married next year school holiday...since our engagement, his family has been telling my family da date we shld get married without our family consent..lots of things have been control by his beloved mum...i really hate her to death...i've been feeling depressed everytime thinking about this..his sister and her fiance is their most concern becoz she is their daughter.his mum always da one dat dont want to tolerate with us..i dun know why but i think becoz she hates me..she thinks his beloved boy deserve someone better...so be it..i dun care..i've been thinking whether to terminate this engagement...i've always been da one dat tolerate with all his mum ignorance and his mum bitchy words...i really hate her....i hate her alot...
i really hate her...
i dun know why but i have a feeling dat i wont be happy with this guy...
what am i suppose to do?

last nite

2006-11-23T17:30:00.000+08:00

hmm last nite my friend name mr Farid dedicate this song to me..actually I've been longing to search this song but with my busy status i dun have time to do it..but thank him alot for dedicating this song..really appreciate it
here is my current fave song

i have finish all my assignment for this semester..
tmrw is da last day to submit database..
hope i get better marks..
wish me luck

my exam has already finish

2006-11-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

exam database is da last paper that i will have today..it will also mark da last examination in da first semester taking master...hope my result is good...lets pray hard for it...
last task will be the graphic programming and database programming..
hope i can make the best out of it...
lallalalallalala..
today i have to go and take the flower bouquet....
next week need to survey somethings..
lots of things to be done...

hmm

2006-11-14T09:45:00.000+08:00

my mode:::::

dis week my exam will be over..but have two more assignment to be submitted before my first semester ends..hope i will be doing great..

my love mode::

i dun know why..but lately i dun feel anything towards my relationships..its not becoz of the distance but it is something inside me...i have been thinking alot whether to end the relationships here or just da time tells whether i'm doin da right things or not...but i feel empty inside me when dealing with da person in this relationship..whenever i talk to him about this,he will surely jump to a conclusion where i am angry with him...da truth is ...it wasnt like dat but i dun feel i'm in da mood or state where i'm going to keep this relationships going on...

i've been longing for a long vacation in da relationships...maybe i shld be doing it after my exam ends...maybe after da vacation i can have some peace inside me helpin me to think straight...

i dun know what am i missing, but there's something dat i miss and i can't define it...

my other part mode::

cant wait to finish my korean dw drama...ive been waiting for so long...dis cute guy with da lovely lady surely my heart goes pumping again..hehhehe

Korean Drama:::A LOve To Kill

since my last korean movie :: wedding i've been thinking alot...to those who are still watching it,maybe u will understand why...hehhe

dats all for now..i've lots of exam notes besides me but i dun have mood to read it at all..

really hate myself...

exam...

2006-11-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

for my last two paper, i can give overall marks of 30%..
hehhe dun know what the question was all about..hate it so much..
dun know what i will score for the exam..hope the best...
anyway bz with all the assignment and report that neew to be submit before end of semester
...ayarkhhs..so tired maa..
above is my fiancee pic during conference..hehhe guess which one is him?

examination Mode

2006-11-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

examination MOde::::
today my first exam paper have just finish..three weeks dat will be like hell i've to face it..
hope i can get thru this obstacle....cant wait to finish my examination...wish me luck in exam...hope i will do the best..
my MOOD::::
i dun feel happy..sometimes upset..
dun get enuff rest
my fever just wont go away...

tagged

2006-11-01T10:15:00.000+08:00

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire:

furnished my house, my fave bedroom and bathroom
buy my dream car *Mini Cooper* and *BMW*
travel to japan and korea
buy those technology gadget
save some money for future...

5 bad habits:

short tempered when i'm with my fiancee (becoz he likes to tease me)
bad tempered when being provoke
being lazy
moody
not sensitive *esp when there's sad situation*

5 things I hate doing:

doing nothing
being told many times how to do some chores
asking peeps to do things many times
repeat what i've said
do some groceries shopping *becoz it takes longer times*

5 things I'll never do:

kill myself *driving or commit suicide*
wearing some outfits dat i dun like
going out with strangers
shops till i drop *hehhe*
wander around without motive

5 things I regret doing:

didnt study hard for my spm * really regret it*
dont have a chance to clarify lot of stuff with my exbf
hurt other people's feeling esp those guys
acting tough but really hurt deep down inside
lost contact with all my buddies since my secondary....

5 fave toys or thing:

anime figurine
cool and nice things for decoration
christmas stuff
cool gadget *esp pda,hp,mp3 and etc*
gurls stuff such as earring,bangle, handbag, hp accessories, blouse and sweater

5 people this tag goes to:

hmm dun have 5 peeps but specially tagged for ateh...hehhehe

my life has been sucks

2006-10-23T07:46:00.000+08:00

actually it is not good to keep on complaining about the assignment but trust me the assignment has been bugging my life like hell...who can have their eid mubarak with 29 journal need to be summarize?then this other assignment need to be submit after this eid..i'm very furious coz it seem like the student have to obey all the lecturer that think its very fair to give the student such lot of workload...
its not that i do want to commit to my studies but u lecturers shld been thinking wisely whether to gave us such adhoc assignment with a few days period of time...

happy eid to all the muslim

2006-10-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

currently so bz with all the assignment and project that have to be submitted after this eid..have to sacrifice my eid to do the best in my studies..tmrw my family will b e going back to dad's hometown..hope they will have safe and sound journey..i will be celebrating this eid with my mom's parent at jb..luckily i still have grandparent here...so happy that all the family can gather in this once in a year ocassion but will miss the month of ramadhan...last but not least.. i wanna ask for forgiveness ..hope u all have a nice eid with family...
wish me luck in my exam..

i'm really pissed off rite now!

2006-10-10T06:15:00.000+08:00

mad becoz of

Noor Azlan Ahmad
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list of work and assignment

2006-09-30T06:46:00.000+08:00

advanced graphic test
advanced graphic programming
advanced graphic journal
advanced graphic group assignment
advanced database practical project
advanced database survey paper
artificial intelligent presentation
theory sci comp assignment 1-3
advanced se

take home test

2006-09-27T09:56:00.000+08:00

take home test..yes i got one from my comp graphic lecturer..da duration time is 2 weeks..but da question was so tough like hell...*sigh*...try my best to find da solution..hope i can get full marks....if this is the question in da final surely i will be staring at da paper for the whole time of examination...hehhehe ...wish me luck...

Allah is the greatest creator

2006-09-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

at this time suddenly i feel dat i mish my dear so much...i dont know why but i do really miss him so much...wouldnt it be better if there's no distance between us...i really miss u alot...today is da third day of fasting month...the weather today is fine since the sun is not hot..there's raining in the afternoon..goodness gracious Ya Allah for giving us this blessing in the month of the glorious...hope this will go on ....i really hope this peacefulness and calmness will remain in myself forever...
hope my heart will remain as crystal clear from now on...
pray for the best in life......

Lip's Of An Angel-hinder

2006-09-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

dedicated to my dearest fiancee....

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late

ramadhan

2006-09-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

this year ramadhan start smoothly...i feel calm and relax compared to my other ramadhan before this...maybe becoz i'm staying at home....i miss my dearest one...hope i can meet him as soon as possible...eventough i just came back from his dad's hometown to have the first ramadhan break with his family....there's lots of things need to be settle after this aidilfitri...
tmrw i got Artificial Intelligent mid term..tried to read the notes many times...but still feels that i'm not gonna make it tmrw...wish me luck..

blurry and perfectionist

Wishing

Update on new house

update: metal journey and losing weight...

metal journey

new resolution

sad memory :pls go away

update!

tired

lets visit Malacca

hubby in Penang

first time swimming

Mannequin of Life

new habits

Happy New Year

mouth ( keep it shut to avoid problem)

new update on my trip to Japan

My Small Casio Exilim View..Kawaii.....

currrent update!

tag phobia

tag carnival will begin.....

tribute to my uncle!

I'm Yours (*i love this song so much)

3 months update...*wink* wink*

1st Anniversary

currently

青山テルマ feat.SoulJa - そばにいるね

tagged again!

been tagged and one of the reason to update my blog!

Birthday Wishes.....

Specially Dedicated for My Hubby

2007 Roundup

tattoo

i'm back

raya 2007 pictures

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin

stupid new procedure.....i hate it....

ramadhan is here again!

3 weeks to go

i'm bored!

i am sad!

why teachers always being blamed?

i'm wandering

why do i feel bad?

these days

super cutey baby

special entry....to LOVEBIRD

ravMon

Visit Malaysia 2007

ratu gigi..anjuran BPG (21-24 May 2007)

bored institution

i'm lazy....

i hate this place so much

the most stupid things

What is Your Color?

Fareeza, your true color is Green!

leisure session

double tag

afta a month

update

happy new Year!

messy life of me

happy new year

the busy me....

I.C.U

irreplaceable

sometimes

a hard day

summerset bay and blah blah

what i've been feeling thru this relationship

last nite

my exam has already finish

hmm

exam...

examination Mode

tagged

my life has been sucks

happy eid to all the muslim

tag

i'm really pissed off rite now!

3 months update...wink wink*