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Wishing

How I wish my life will be blessed with a fruit of love!
I have been longing for him for quite some times !
Time will not heal the emptiness in my life!
Ya Allah , give me and guide me through this painful yet calm journey of life!
Give me full strength to pull the courage in my marriage!

Update on new house

Been so excited on moving to a new house lately...buy a bit frustrated when the house was not completed according to the agreement.lots of defect and even complaints about the defects were not rectified by the developer.called the handy man.now moving on putting some lamps some wiring works with the handyman.bought the lamps at Nilai 3 and Serdang.2 weeks before tinted the house.satisfied with the job.next week starts some painting and wiring work.hope my house will look better with the simple renovation work.

update: metal journey and losing weight...

went to Borders  yesterday with sis in law...surfing thru the book racks...found something interesting..bought it and hopefully i can finish reading it...knowledge is power....

my metal journey is enjoyable...

losing weight?hehhe  i'm still trying....

metal journey

start my metal journey today..

hope i can get thru this journey with bliss...

new resolution

i've gained weight for the past few years...totally sucks...met the doctor for family planning...

was told to burn more carbs.....since now i'm totally obese with this hormone problems....at first it was really nervous since the total lost would mean disaster....but as a week past i'm more positive...

now i have lost 3 kg...

without exercise but no rice diet...

so this week would be no rice with exercise.....

hope i can reach the doctor's target...

Ya Allah help me get thru this...

sad memory :pls go away

Telah jauh  terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….

C/O
Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

(terhanyut jiwa ini, terjatuh dihatinya)

guess wat i dun really like listening to Malay songs compared to English or Japanese songs but this one particular song really make my life up side down for awhile...thinking about my past...

sometimes sincerely i do think about it..

what if i didn't change my life and still stick to those old memories..

i wont be here like this..

maybe my life wont be like this

maybe i wont keep on remembering those bitter sweets memories so much..

sometimes i even cried out deep inside my heart...

why does it really happen?

why cant my life will be better without remembering that stupid piece of stains in life...

that's why i have to keep my faith strong so that i wont keep on falling in those serious deep scars in my heart...

oh dear heart please dun hurt anymore..

enough is enough...

dun ever regret it again again

but sometimes remembering is unavoidable...